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Into the dark

Still here

I never knew life could be this way
Life without you
I never knew life could be this strange
Like a sky that isn’t blue
I know you’re still here
I know you still care
I know you follow me places only you and I would share
You know you’re my love
Know that I always cared
I may have been away without you
But my heart was always here

Never forget
I never left
Always there in the shadows
Hard to believe
Because you couldn’t see
Always there when I mattered

I’m still here

I never meant to fall this way
So much to sacrifice
I never thought life would pass away
And at such a high price
Feel we’re still one
That love hasn’t gone
I sense everything about you
Around me when I’m alone
Know that you’ll always be
Deep in the heart of me
No matter where I am today
You’ll always be a part of me

Never forget
I never left
Always there in the shadows
Hard to believe
Because you couldn’t see
Always there when I mattered

I’m still here

Death and life

Death is all around us, just take a look and you will see it every day, on the television, in the newspapers, maybe very near to you. But why is it that we pay so little attention to it? About death, there are just 2 things for sure: everyone of us will die one day, and no-one knows exactly when.

No-one expects to die, think about the recent plane crashes in Russia, India or Libya. None of them expected their lives to end. They took life for granted, just like us. Doesn’t everybody know stories about people who just got ill so suddenly and passed away? It can happen to everyone, your body can collapse any moment, or you can die in an accident.

Every now and then you should ask yourself the question: “Imagine that I would die tonight, then what?”
Death is a reality the comes without warning.

Only those who understand that life is so fragile, know how precious it is.
Live your life from moment to moment. Because that is all there is.

THIS is the moment. Live it.

Meeting Isaac Shapiro

Last Sunday I went to a satsang in Amsterdam with Isaac Shapiro (http://www.isaacshapiro.de), a spiritual guru, who gave me some great insights about “hope”. It learned me to let all hope go, which, at that moment felt great and opened new doors. He really inspired me to see things differently.
Today I found out, it’s still so easy to get frustrated when things don’t go your way, how easily you can fall back in old patterns that make you feel helpless.
Fortunately those moments don’t last long anymore and they must be good for some reason. Whatever happens, always find your consciousness again and look back at your actions and behaviour. There’s always a chance for new things, ’cause what happened, is not real anymore in THIS moment.

Anything can happen NOW. Don’t give your power away to someone else or to the circumstances. YOU are the source of all things that happen. And yeah, also I make mistakes , lots of them actually! Although real mistakes don’t exist, there are just lessons to be learned. Just results you create, that you might not like. It’s in your hands to create other results.

Nothing happens without a reason, even if you don’t get it at all. Believe in the wisdom behind it. One day you will understand.
One day I will understand why the things happen as they happen.

For now, all I can do is to accept.
Accept that I have to let go…
My biggest challenge, because I really suck in letting go…!
There’s just one way…not avoiding it, but going right through it…with all fears and doubts, it’s the only way.

Let it go.
Make yourself free.

Against all odds

Take a look at me now,
’cause there’s just an empty space.
And there’s nothing left to remind me,
Just the memory of your face.
You coming back to me is against all odds,
And that’s a chance I have to take.

In my fantasy

I have a dream, a fantasy, in which we are all united.
In which we live a life in abundance, in which everything is good, in which unconditional love is the one and only existing power.
And my intention is to do my every best in creating that world.
Are you with me?

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Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo giusto,
Li tutti vivono in pace e in onestà.
Io sogno d’anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien’ d’umanità in fondo all’anima.

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo chiaro,
Li anche la notte è meno oscura.
Io sogno d’anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano.

Nella fantasia esiste un vento caldo,
Che soffia sulle città, come amico.
Io sogno d’anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien’ d’umanità in fondo all’anima.

Translation:

In my fantasy I see a just world,
Where everyone lives in peace and honesty.
I dream of souls that are always free
Like the clouds that float
Full of humanity in the depths of the soul.

In my fantasy I see a bright world
Where each night there is less darkness.
I dream of spirits that are always free,
Like the clouds that float

In my fantasy exists a warm wind,
That blows into the city, like a friend.
I dream of souls that are always free,
Like the clouds that float
Full of humanity in the depths of the soul.

Para una persona especial

No me abandones asi
hablando solo de ti
Ven y devuelveme al fin
la sonrisa que se fue
Una vez mas
tocar tu piel
y hondo suspirar
Recuperemos lo que se ha perdido

(Chorus)
Regresa a mi
Quiereme otra vez
Borra el dolor
que al irte me dio
cuando te separaste de mi
Dime que si
Yo no quiero llorar
Regresa a mi

Extraño el amor que se fue
Extraño la dicha tambien
Quiero que vengas a mi
y me vuelvas a querer
No puedo mas
si tu no estas
Tienes que llegar
Mi vida se apaga
sin ti a mi lado

(Chorus)
Regresa a mi
Quiereme otra vez
Borra el dolor que al irte me dio
cuando te separaste de mi
Dime que si
Yo no quiero llorar
Regresa a mi

No me abandones asi
hablando solo de ti
Devuelveme la pasion de tus brazos
Regresa a mi
Quiereme otra vez
Borra el dolor
que al irte me dio
cuando te separaste de mi
Dime que si
Yo no quiero llorar
Borra el dolor
que al irte me dio
cuando te separaste de mi
Dime que si
Dime que si

Regresa a mi

Regresa a mi

I do it my way

Whose life are you living? Is it yours? Really?

Or are you living the way society, your family, your friends, your boss, your partner, your children, the politics or the government wants?
Who is telling you that you cannot do things? What dreams do you have? And who is holding you from achieving those?

Take a look at yourself.
You begin your life with nothing.
You will leave your life with nothing.
Isn’t it time to actually live in between?
Think of how you want to be remembered when you’re gone…really…how do you want to have lived your life?

I know I will be able to look back at my life and honestly say that I have loved, I have laughed and I have cried.
I’ve lived a life that’s full, I do it every day now and I will do it for the rest of my life, no matter how long that will be.
Regrets I’ve had a few, but too few to mention.
And everything I do, I do it my way. Because it is my life.

For what is a man what has he got
If not himself then he has not
To say the things he truly feels
And not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows
And did it my way

And you?

Join me in being alone

I am alone, but not lonely.

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Acompáñame a estar solo
A purgarme los fantasmas
A meternos en la cama sin tocarnos
Acompáñame al misterio
De no hacernos compañía
A dormir sin pretender que pase nada
Acompáñame a estar solo

Join me in being alone
In purging the ghosts
In getting in bed without touching each other
Join me in the mystery
Of not being company
Of sleeping without pretending that nothing is happening
Join me in being alone

Acompáñame al silencio
De charlar sin las palabras
A saber que estás ahí y yo a tu lado
Acompáñame a lo absurdo de abrazarnos sin contacto
Tú en tu sitio yo en el mío
Como un ángel de la guarda
Acompáñame a estar solo

Join me in silence
In speaking without words
In knowing that you are there and I’m at your side
Join me in the absurd of holding each other without contact
You in your place and me in mine
Like a guardian angel
Join me in being alone

Acompáñame
A decir sin las palabras
Lo bendito que es tenerte y serte infiel solo con esta soledad
Acompáñame
A quererte sin decirlo
A tocarte sin rozar ni el reflejo de tu piel a contraluz
A pensar en mí para vivir por ti

Join me
In speaking without words
The blessing that is having you and being unfaithful only in this solitude
Join me
In loving you without saying it
In touching you without grazing not even the reflection of your skin on the backlight
To think of me in order to live for you

Acompáñame a estar solo
Acompáñame a estar solo
Para calibrar mis miedos
Para envenenar de a poco mis recuerdos
Para quererme un poquito
Y así quererte como quiero
Para desintoxicarme del pasado
Acompáñame a estar solo

Join me in being alone
Join me in being alone
To calibrate my fears
To poison my memories little by little
In order to love you how I want (or how I love)
To decontaminate me of the past
Join me in being alone

Y si se apagan las luces
Y si se enciende el infierno
Y si me siento perdido
Se que tú estarás conmigo
Con un beso de rescate
Acompáñame a estar solo

And if the lights go out
And if hell ignites
And if I feel lost
I know that you will be with me
With a rescue kiss
Join me in being alone

The language of my heart

It is amazing how I feel and what has been happening to me the last 2,5 years, but more specifically the last 5 months.
All my life I have feared many things, and I resisted the things I didn’t like of myself. I couldn’t accept me. Who I am, and I tried to change me. Not knowing that it isn’t possible to change who you are. The only thing you can do, is to accept yourself, your faults, your mistakes, your body, your life. Accept it, and take it in your heart and you will experience the change within you. I did it. Finally. With all my fears and doubts. Always thinking there needed to be someone close to me, that I couldn’t do it on my own.

Because of many things, things placed on my path, people have either disappeared from my life, or have taken a different position. One that brings me closer to them, and closer to myself. I am me, and I just feel love. No judgements, no jealousy, no anger, no frustration. Just love, peace, harmony.
Now I feel and I know, that my biggest fear, has become my biggest power. What a paradox life can be.

I accept you, as you are, completely. And I accept myself.
And I realise, you have not changed, the things have not changed.
It is me that has changed.

You may love me. You may also hate me. I am what I am.
And I love you, no matter how you feel about me.

Even if I sometimes sound broken, or confused, or you can see my tears, don’t be afraid.
Just know that it is good.
Because it is the language of my heart.